Tis the season to be..........
Its just amazingly crazy how this month and next month just start to swallow me before I know it. I was fine and then tis the season approaches and I am smacked with so much emotion and stress...anger still too???? There are days I could still sit and lean up against a wall to cry for hours then there are others where I hold my head high and say I am proud of who I am and what everything has made me today.
I love her and I will forever miss her....every year every day!!
posted by Angel In Disguise at 12/06/2010 02:58:00 PM
3 Comments:
Amanda, you are forever a changed woman because of the things that are out of your control. When there's nothing we know to do, nothing we can do to avoid tragedy & grief, we are only left to learn how to live with it, grow with it, try to get beyond it, yet never let it go. Because if we let it go, we then let go of what we never want to forget. So there we are left with a metophoric solution of allowing it all to coexist within us & conform us to a state unto which we can somewhat learn to handle. We swallow it & allow it to manifest itself into an inner glow that allows for a glide within our step & yet still has to carry us on those days our legs are too weak with agony from the loss that still lingers if we allow it to swell up.
I wandered onto this blog today because I felt such a strong presence within me of her & realized it's a few days shy of her 7th birthday. It was her presence within me that was reminding me. I look at Delaney & it amazes me that they are not that far apart in age & I cant help but wonder some more. Then I embrace the gifts of the memories we are blessed with that will live on in our hearts, our minds, our being, our family, for all time.
Happy, Happy Birthday Angel Baby! The years do pass, but the memories remain. We love you, we miss you, we feel you within us & are so thankful for you in our world. You were born unto an Angel that can look into a mirror & in her reflection see you & your wings. She carries them & all your wonderful memories you've given to her & your family with her everyday. I know you are so proud of her & where she is at today, just as I am. For although what was taken can never be replaced, it will never be forgotten & will be forever loved! Happy Birthday Beautiful Hailey! Sending you many hugs, big smooches, & love from us all out here in Indiana! xoxo <3
My love to you all! <3
Thank You!! Your words always melt me!! Yet so meaningful and sometimes so right and sad....your words make me smile within. I love you Bob!!
I love you more than you know my Girl!! Can't even put it to word. How I love you, how proud I am of you, how I envy you, how lucky I am to have you as a part of my life. <3 xoxo
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