BRAVE SOUL

WAS THINKING ALOT ABOUT HER TODAY!! IN THINKING ABOUT HER TODAY, I REALIZED SOMETHING AND I DON'T KNOW IF THIS WAS EVER SOMETHING I MAY HAVE THOUGHT OF IN THE PAST OR NOT...BUT IT CAME TO ME TODAY!! THAT LITTLE GIRL WAS BRAVE FOR EVERYTHING SHE ENDURED THAT NIGHT.............WHEN I LOOKED AT HER SITTING IN THAT HIGH CHAIR, FACE BRIGHT RED AND HER HAND IN HER MOUTH AND GASPING FOR THE AIR THAT SHE COULDN'T GET NOR I COULDN'T GIVE, THERE WERE NO TEARS......I THINK BACK AND I LOOKED INTO HER EYES AS I PULLED HER OUT OF THAT HIGH CHAIR AND SHE HAD NO TEARS..........

WHEN I DID THE HEIMLICH AGAIN THERE WERE NO TEARS, WHEN I RAN TO THE FRONT DOOR WITH HER TO TRY AND GET HER AIR, SHE JUST LOOKED AT ME STILL GASPING FOR AIR, STILL NO TEARS.......FINALLY WHEN I LAID HER DOWN AS SHE WENT UNCONSCIOUS AND STARTED CPR ON HER SHE LAID THERE SO PEACEFUL AND NO TEARS......THAT LITTLE GIRL LEFT THIS WORLD, LEFT HER FAMILY AND FRIENDS WITH NO TEARS......... COULD YOU DO THAT??? SHE DIDN'T KNOW WHAT WAS HAPPENING TO HER , I AS HER MOMMY DIDN'T KNOW WHAT WAS WRONG WITH HER AND AS HER MOMMY I COULDN'T FIX IT AND I SWEAR BY THE WAY SHE LOOKED AT ME THAT NIGHT IT WAS AS IF SHE KNEW THERE WAS NOTHING I COULD DO. I HAVE NEVER FELT SO HELPLESS IN LIFE AS I DID THAT NIGHT! SORRY FOR THE DETAIL BUT I NEED TO LET EVERYONE KNOW HOW BRAVE AND HOW STRONG MY LITTLE GIRL WAS.........SHE AMAZED ME FROM DAY 1 OF HER LIFE AND STILL NOW TODAY SHE CONTINUES TO AMAZE ME AND MAKE ME WHO I AM TODAY!!

I LOVE YOU HAILEY AND MISS YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING!!!