The Childrens Foundation Of Suffolk Inc.
Whelp this pat weekend was the annual luau for the Childrens Foundation and this year it was in memory of Hailey Bug!! It was awesome!! We were able to give $10,000.00 to each of the three families!! I made a board with a little bio on what happend to Hailey and put a bunch of pictures on the board of the bug. We did a moment of silence for Hailey, during the moment of silence her board went flying off the eisel, it was her saying "silence, guys I never sat in silence!!" You can call me crazy but I truly believe that was her letting us know she was there with us!! It made me happy to know she was there!! I miss her so much!! People who found out about Hailey asked me why am I doing what I do on the foundation, and I don't do it because I can get glory or ego out of it, I do it because part of me feels like I couldn't help my own daughter but maybe if I give my time and energy to someone who needs it, I can help save someone else's baby. The parents of these sick children actually asked me how do I do it, I couldn't understand why they would ask me this when, they are the ones who are in the hospital everyday with their child watching them suffer. I didn't have to watch my daughter suffer, she left with no warning,but I didn't watch her ill everyday of her life, and I then would ask them how do you do it??Hailey is gone and I miss her so much, part of me feels like by the luau being in her memory and the playground being put down at Corey beach that it's keeping her going, but it's also keeping me going. For example I feel like I am climbing a ladder and the more I get done in her memory or to just help people in general, I feel like I am going to get her back!!I know it sounds silly but while I am doing these things I am thinking of her, I am thinking that if I succeed in everything I want to do good she will be given back to me. I want her back there is nothing more in the world I want then to have her back to hold,to kiss,to hug, to feed,to bathe, to watch sleep,to drive me nuts,and most of all just love and feel that love again.But I won't I won't ever feel that again, the only thing I can do is try and show her how much she is missed and loved!! My birthday there was a terrible void, I wanted nothing but to get a birthday card from her and to have her sit on my lap to blow my birthday candles out for me!!
posted by Angel In Disguise at 9/11/2006 05:37:00 PM
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The luau was a success because of all the hard work all of you put into it. It was really a special night. I felt Hailey was there watching over the event. (Especially when the board blew over...twice!) She was definately proud of her mama and all her dedication to make it better night for 3 families. She is proud of you, Amanda. I know you miss and love her more than words can say...I'm sure the families that night were very grateful to have you to count on through their rough times. I know you made a difference in their lives, which means alot. Your Mom told me the butterfly story, and I truly believe in things like that. (I noticed lots of butterflies hanging around the fences too!!) I know that night wasn't easy for you or the family; how could it be...but you stayed there to help others in need, and that is really a wonderful thing. I guess what I am trying to say, is that I admire your courage and your will. Stay strong, Angel girl loves you! (so do we!)
Awww!! Thank You!! You always have the best of words!!I had a great time for the short period of time I was able to hang out with you!!It feels nice to be able to help others, it was a hard night in the aspect of it having to be in memory of Hailey, howeer the board falling def. made it an easier night. It showed us all that she was there watching what everyone is doing and she was there with us 100%!! I loved that, I loved knowing she was there, it lifted me and made it such a magical nightI almost felt that I was reunited with her, when they were playing her song I just stared out into the ocean and pictured her looking down at all of us!!I thank you for being there for us you have no idea how much it means and meant to have you all there that night!!She does love us all and she watches over us all at all times!!Its not too often that she lets me know she's around but when she does, boy does she have away doing it!!
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