HOW SHOULD WE FEEL
NOT SURE HOW WE SHOULD FEEL AFTER THE NEWS WE RECEIVED TODAY. A RUMOR HAS IT THAT ONE OF THE DOCTORS THAT OUR DAUGHTER WAS UNDER THE CARE OF WAS FIRED AND THE REASON THIS DOCTOR WAS FIRED WAS DUE TO HAVING TOO MANY WRONGFUL DEATHS UNDER HIS CARE. HOW SHOULD WE FEEL? WHEN WILL THIS RAGE OF PAIN AND ANGER BE OVER, IT FEELS LIKE A FRESH WOUND IT FEELS LIKE SOMEONE JUST POURED SALT IN AN OPEN CUT!!TO KNOW THIS INFORMATION AND HAVE TO WONDER WAS OUR LITTLE GIRL ONE OF HIS WRONGFUL SIUTATIONS OR WAS THERE TRULY NO SAVING HER. AND THEN I GO BACK AND I THINK OF ALL THE NEGATIVE THINGS THIS MAN SAID TO ME ON THE MOST HORRID NIGHT OF MY LIFE AND I CAN ONLY HELP TO THINK THAT IT IS TRULY A POSSIBILITY THAT SHE WASN'T MEANT TO LEAVE THIS WORLD YET, MAYBE SHE IS STILL MEANT TO BE HERE. I HAVE ONE THING THAT IS SAVIN GRACE RIGHT NOW AND I KNOW IT MAY SOUND COMPLETELY OUT IN LEFT FIELD BUT IF THIS IS ALL TRUE MAYBE SHE IS COMING BACK REAL SOON ONLY IN A HEALTHY BODY........................................
IT HURTS DAMN IT!!!!
posted by Angel In Disguise at 3/19/2007 04:05:00 PM
2 Comments:
OMG, I can't believe that, Amanda. That is so horrible. What a dirt bag! I know how hard you fought taking her to the doctor all the time and everything so it must make you furious that the person who was supposed to be there to detect the problem and fix it was an incompetent jerk! I'm so sorry...I know there isn't anything that I can do or say and even saying that I'm sorry doesn't mean much either. I hope he is never allowed to treat another patient again. Still, no matter what happens to him you are left with the questions of what might have been if Hailey had another doctor. I could tell you not to go there and just don't think that way, but I know you will anyway b/c that's only natural. Just know that it isn't your fault. As frustrating as it is, some things are just out of our hands for whatever reason. And I don't think you sound crazy at all...I know for a fact that we are going to be given at least a little piece of Hailey back! How amazing is that?!?!?! I can't wait!!! : )
Love,
Jess
Oh that higher power is working already...look at it go!!!Two major positive things in less than three months from one another!!I have been taking many deep breaths!! I went and saw her today and she was answering my questions through those pin wheels and I asked her if she knew about this doctor and she responded with a no and then I asked her if more could have been done for her that night and it slightly turned so you take what you want from that and leave the rest because I know I did!! I am okay and I will be okay because I know each and all that screwed up will get theres and if no one screwed up may they all have peace in their lives. Life is interesting and it only seems to become more and more interesting day by day; the only thing I have learned is it is all a learning experience could be a shitty one but as long as you learn from it, it only makes you a stronger person tomorrow!!
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