YUCKIE DAY,YUCKIE MONTH

HAVING A REALLY BAD DAY TODAY!! FEEL VERY YUCKIE INSIDE. I COULD PROBABLY SIT HERE AND TYPE ALL DAY WHILE THE TEARS FLOW. I MISS HER, I MISS HER SO MUCH. WHERE IS THIS FAIR?? WHERE IS IT FAIR THAT WE HAVE TO HURT? WHERE IS IT FAIR THAT SHE WAS MY EVERYTHING AND HE JUST TOOK HER AWAY AS THOUGH IT WAS OK OR SOMETHING. I NEED HER, I WISH I COULD WRAP MY ARMS AROUND HER RIGHT NOW. I WISH I COULD JUST EVEN SEE HER TO BLOW HER A KISS. GOD, THIS SUCKS. THIS FEELING IN THE BACK OF MY THROAT AS I TRY TO FIGHT THE TEARS BECAUSE I AM SICK OF CRYING, I AM AT WORK AND DON'T WANT TO DRAW ATTENTION TO MYSELF AS THE TEARS FALL.SO I FIGHT THE TEARS AND IT BURNS MY THROAT, NEVER MIND THE FACT THAT I QUIT SMOKING SO I CAN'T EVEN GO OUTSIDE TO SMOKE A CIGARETTE AND RELIEVE THE STRESS THAT WAY. WHY DID HE MAKE THIS HAPPEN?? WHY COULDN'T HE LET US KEEP HER JUST FOR AWHILE LONGER ATLEAST?? WHY WAS I AT HOME ALONE WHEN THIS HAPPEND WHY COULDN'T FRANK BE THERE WITH ME, IF HE MADE IT HAPPEN ON A SUNDAY FRANK ATLEAST COULD HAVE BEEN THERE. WHY DID IT GO DOWN THE WAY IT DID??
I JUST HAVE SO MANY QUESTIONS AND I FIND WHEN I AM HAVING ONE OF THOSE BAD DAYS OF MINE THATS WHEN ALL THE QUESTIONS SURFACE. THANKS FOR LISTENING!!

DON'T FORGET THIS SUNDAY 1/14/2007 AT 2:00 OUR LADY OF THE SNOW,BLUE POINT AVENUE,BLUE POINT, N.Y., 11715 A SPECIAL MEMORIAL MASS FOR OUR LITTLE BUG!!!