1/16/06;1/16/07 5:08-6:30P.M.

Where do I begin!! What a day!! We were okay though. We both took off from work and went and did a few things that needed to be done as far as Hailey is concerned. It was sad when 5:08 rolled around. I remember being in my hallway shortly after that giving her CPR and talking to God asking him to please help her thinking she was choking. I remember before they had me do CPR on her, holding her in my arms as she went unconscious. How many people have to experience their children dying in their arms. Her death certificate says she died in the hospital at 6:30, I know better she died at home in her mummy's arms and as hard as that is atleast when she went through that she wasn't alone in a hospital surrounded by people she didn't know.I felt that little girl, our daughter leave this world in my arms. I cannot understand for the life of me why this happened, but it sucks!! The church service the other day I have to say was beautiful!! He did a really nice job!!
As I was driving home from work lastnight, I was thinking how I just wish when I walked through the door she would be there to run into my arms and obviously she wasn't but however when I did get home, I did my first usual thing and let the dog outside forgetting that her Christmas tree is now in my back yard. When I let the dog out I noticed something glowing bright in the back yard and it was her tree glowing bright for the first time since we brought it home from the cemetery. I thought to myself whelp Amanda, theres your greeting!! I called Frank and told him, neither one of us noticed that tree lit since we brought it home, so I know that was Hailey greeting me the only way she could right now!!