Thursday, April 12, 2007

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANGEL GIRL!!





HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR HAILEY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!

TODAY OUR LITTLE ANGEL WOULD HAVE BEEN THREE!! AND SHE IS MAKING IT RAIN RIGHT NOW!! SHE SAID I WILL MAKE IT THAT YOU CAN'T COME TO THE CEMETERY AND CRY!! ITS MY PARTY AND I WILL CRY IF I WANT TO!!! SHE ALWAYS HAS AN INTERESTING WAY OF MAKING IT DIFFICULT!!

YESTERDAY PREPARING OURSELVES FOR TODAY WAS HARDER THAN TODAY SO FAR IS. WE GOT HER A 3 FOOT LADY BUG MADE OUT OF FLOWERS AND TODAY I AM GOING TO GO TO A STATUE PLACE AND HAVE A BENCH MADE UP, I WOULD ALSO LIKE TO TRY AND MAKE IT TO THE TOY STORE AND PURCHASE A NEW TOY FOR HER DAYCARE CENTER!! I GUESS DOING THESE THINGS MAKES IT A LITTLE EASIER OR KEEPS US BUSY... I DON'T KNOW BUT WHATEVER IT IS SO BE IT!!


I MISS HER ESPECIALLY TODAY KNOWING THAT SHE WOULD HAVE BEEN THREE!! THREE YEARS OLD.....AND WE CAN'T GET TO CELEBRATE HER THIRD BIRTHDAY WITH HER!! BUT SHE KNOWS HOW BADLY SHE WISHES WE COULD!! WE LOVE YOU BUG AND PLEASE KNOW YOU ARE ALWAYS IN OUR THOUGHTS!!! FOREVER AND EVER!!! ENJOY YOUR DAY AND WE WILL BE DOWN AS SOON AS YOU MAKE THE RAIN STOP YA LITTLE PIP!!

Tuesday, April 10, 2007





YA KNOW ITS FUNNY BECAUSE ALL DAY I DID NOT STOP THINKING OF HER ON EASTER. I THOUGHT ABOUT MY LITTLE GIRL ALL DAY. I WONDERED IF SHE WAS THERE PLAYING WITH THE KIDS,ETC... NOW BACK UP FOR A SECOND AND THIS COULD MEAN NOTHING AT ALL BECAUSE I DON'T LIVE IN JANESSA'S HOUSE TO SEE IF THIS HAPPENS OFTEN OR NOT BUT ON THREE SEPARATE OCCASIONS WHEN I WAS AT MY SISTERS HOUSE THIS HAPPENED. THE FIRST TIME WAS WHEN I WAS WATCHING SARAH BECAUSE JANESSA WAS IN LABOR WITH GABE, I WAS AT THEIR HOUSE AND I SPOKE TO HAILEY AND TOLD HER TO GO WATCH OVER THEM AND MAKE SURE MY SISTER WAS OKAY. THE SECOND TIME WAS WHEN MY SISTER WAS TAKEN BY AMBULANCE BECAUSE SHE WAS REALLY SICK AND COULDN'T BREATH, I AGAIN WAS AT THEIR HOUSE WATCHING SARAH AND GABE, I ASKED HAILEY TO GO MAKE SURE JANESSA WAS OKAY AND TO MAKE SURE SHE CAME HOME. THE THIRD TIME THIS HAPPENED WAS THE OTHER DAY ON EASTER, AS I SAID I WONDERED ALL DAY IF HAILEY WAS THERE WITH THE KIDS AND FELT AS THOUGH SHE WAS LIKE I ALWAYS DO FOR SOME REASON WHEN I AM AT JANESSA'S, IT'S KIND OF WEIRD I GUESS MAYBE I FEEL THAT WAY BECAUSE THAT'S WHERE WE STAYED WHEN IT FIRST HAPPENED I DON'T KNOW....BUT THE FIRST TIME I STAYED AT JANESSA'S AND ASKED HAILEY TO GO WATCH OVER HER AUNT AND HER NEW COUSIN ON THE WAY, JANESSA'S FRONT DOOR POPPED OPEN COMPLETELY ON IT OWN, THE NEXT TIME I STAYED THERE FRANK AND I WERE IN THE LIVING ROOM AFTER THEY TOOK JANESSA AND I KEPT GETTING UP TO CHECK ON THE BABY AND SARAH AND BEING NERVOUS ABOUT MY BIG SISTER ON MANY OF MY TRIPS TO THE BEDROOM TO CHECK ON THEM I WOULD ASK HAILEY TO MAKE SURE SHE IS THERE WATCHING OVER MY SISTER...AS I WENT TO CHECK ON THE KIDS AFTER ASKING HER, JANESSA'S FRONT DOOR POPPED OPEN...WHELP THIS TIME IT SCARED ME AND I MADE FRANK GO MAKE SURE NO ONE WAS THERE, HOWEVER IT CLICKED THAT WAS HAILEY LEAVING TO GO WATCH JANESSA, AND NOW FINALLY THIS EASTER SUNDAY EVERYONE WAS AT JANESSA'S HOUSE AND ALL THE KIDS WERE PLAYING AND I WONDERED WHAT SHE WOULD BE DOING HAD SHE BEEN THERE WITH US AND I WONDERED IF SHE WAS THERE PLAYING WITH THE KIDS WE JUST COULDN'T SEE HER, IT WAS LATER THAT NIGHT AND FRANK AND I WERE GETTING READY TO GO HOME AND AS I WALKED OUT OF JANESSA'S LIVING ROOM TO GET OUR COATS FROM THE OTHER ROOM THE FRONT DOOR POPPED OPEN ,LIKE SHE KNEW WE WERE ALL LEAVING SO IT WAS TIME FOR HER TO GO AS WELL.....BUT LIKE I SAID WHO KNOWS FOR ALL I KNOW "JANESSA IT MAY JUST BE TIME FOR A NEW DOOR!!"..LOL!! BUT LET ME THINK WHAT I WANT ....OKAY???LOL!!!


I MISS HER AND I JUST KEEP WONDERING IF WE ARE ALL GOING TO GET LITTLE GLIMPSES OF HER IN THE NEW ON THE WAY BABY!! IT WOULD BE SOMETHING SPECIAL IF WE DID!! HER BIRTHDAY IS COMING IN THE NEXT FEW DAYS..SHE WOULD BE 3....HMMMMM WHAT WOULD WE HAVE BOUGHT YOU FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY THIS YEAR......LET ME THINK ABOUT IT AND I WILL LET YOU KNOW BECAUSE I PROBABLY WILL GO OUT AND BUY IT AND BRING IT TO HER DAYCARE CENTER.


Friday, April 06, 2007

HAPPY EASTER BUG!!


HAPPY EASTER MY LITTLE TINKER BELL GIRL!! WE MISS YOU!! WE WILL MISS NOT HAVING YOU AT BREAKFAST,THE EASTER EGG HUNT AND AT AUNT NESSA'S FOR DINNER.....SO MAKE SURE YOU ARE THERE RUNNING AROUND WITH THE KIDS...LET US KNOW YOU ARE THERE IT WOULD MAKE MY DAY AND I AM SURE EVERYONE ELSE'S TOO!! IF I KNEW YOU, YOU WILL BE MAKING YOUR ROUNDS THAT DAY TO WHERE EVER THERE IS KIDDIES RUNNING AROUND!! WE MISS YOU BABY GIRL, NEVER A DAY THAT GOES BY WHERE YOUR NOT THOUGHT ABOUT!! WE LOVE YOU!!



ITS ANOTHER EASTER WITH OUT OUR LITTLE GIRL AND YET IT NEVER SEEMS TO GET EASIER. YOU STILL THINK ABOUT ALL THE THINGS THAT YOU THOUGHT ABOUT FOR THE YEAR BEFORE.SO AGAIN THE PEOPLE THAT THINK IN TIME IT GETS EASIER.................. WRONG!!!! I KNOW SHE WILL BE WITH US ALL DAY THAT DAY THOUGH!!