Can you tell their sisters!! ;)

My little Bella turned 21 months this past Friday, which was the age that I lost my Hailey bug at. I am hoping that once we get past 21 months I will be not so lunaticish!! LOL!

Time marches and I will never forget Hailey....though I have to say having Isabella is sometimes also still a piece of her sister.....There are times where I can see certain Hailey charateristics.

Having Bella at the beach this weekend brought back so many good memories but also made so many good new ones!! She loved the beach, she loved her boat rides with pop pop as did Hailey. I think Hailey was with them on their boat rides this weekend. I still get a lump in my throat when I come on here to type...maybe thats why I do it. Maybe its my time where I want to feel that pain for her again. I want her to know that even though I go through lifes daily activities she is still apart of "us" and I still hurt not having her here. I go back and think about that night that I lost her and still wonder if I could have done more?? Did I not try hard enough??Was there too much panic in me?? I will never know... but I do hope she knows how loved and missed she will always be. How she changed the person I am today.